Psalm 139 is an amazing passage of scripture. It speaks of how well, intimately, and completely God knows us. The psalmist says this knowledge…the understanding of how all encompassing God’s passionate care for us is…is beyond him. He says that it is too ‘lofty’ for him to try to fully understand or attain.
Recently, I went through an extremely difficult circumstance. Some intense stress in my life caused me to go through a time of panic, fear and depression. My husband was key in helping me get through this time (as were close and caring friends). Multiple times, I said to my husband and my friends, how blessed I was, and how grateful, to have a husband who so totally ‘gets’ me. My close friends carried me through as much as they could, but there were just areas deep within me that only my husband…my one-flesh partner…could touch. Only he has the deepest intimate knowledge of the corners of my heart and mind, like no other human. He was able to speak words that could reach me, could calm me, could sustain me in ways that no one else could.
And yet…the even deeper truth here is…no matter how deeply and intimately my husband knows me, my God knows me infinitely more. There are times when I’m sure my husband wishes he knew what words were on my tongue before even I do, but that privilege is God’s alone (sorry, Honey). Knowing when I sit and when I rise…all my comings and goings…seeing every anxious though and unruly way (and still loving me more than I can imagine!)…all these are known by God alone.
It’s unfathomable… It’s knowledge too wonderful for me…to lofty to attain. In a good way. A very, very good way.